Dear anita,

my faltmates were nicer to me recently. Even the woman, who ignored me, talked to me again. I have no clue what happened with them. The lesson is to not worry about what others might think so much. It is hard for me, but I want to free myself from this way of thinking. Better say stop to myself, when I get into this cycle of thinking again.

But I still want to move out. It is time for a change, and there is also only a limited time you can live in a dormitory. Maybe if I live with only one or two people, it will be easier for me.

K. recently called me. Maybe you will be angry at me, for taking the call, but I was curious about what he wanted. In the end, it helped me see what kind of a person he truly is. He revealed a lot more about his character during the call. He wanted to get back with me, but I told him that I don’t want to see him again. I better don’t tell more about what he said, or you would just get furious again. Now I can move on with no regrets, so it was worth it. In an impulse, I threw my phone into the river. While I regret the pollution, at least he doesn’t have my number anymore now.

You guided me through ending contact with him the first time, which was a good advice and helpful. But I also have to make my own experiences and now I ended it on my own terms and I feel calmer.