Dear Elizabeth:

If you include me in as one of the people who you pushed away, and if you apologized to me in your recent post (?), if you did, please let me know so that I can respond to your apology, again, if it is meant for me.

What I see is a woman who is hurting, a woman who worked hard and did her best to make a relationship and a marriage work, a woman who has loved a man intensely for a long time, being dedicated to him, loyal, supportive and then betrayed.

Hurt, anger, fear are all mixed in this painful experience. I wish it was not this way for you. I wish your love was reciprocated with the same dedication, work and love you put into it.

I wish I could write something that will take your pain away, but seems like only one person can do that, take your pain away, at least for some time, and that is him. Isn’t it?

Unlike what you wrote, you are not a s*^ person and you are not a lost cause. You are a person in pain, that is all. And unlike what you wrote in previous posts, you do not deserve it, you do not deserve his betrayal and love being gone from your life.

Please do post again. I want to read more from you and I will be more careful to be gentle in my posts to you, being more aware now than I was before, how much it is that you are hurting. I very much hope you feel better soon!

anita