Anita, I am so sad. Sad this is a reality. Sad for the world. Sad to think of the responsibility I didn’t take for myself all of these years. Sad for all the time I people pleased instead of taking care of myself. The times I sacrificed my happiness for everyone around. Now so late in life I learn this. When I’ve wasted so much time. I could have a life, children and a spouse but instead wasted 5 years on a narcissist. On someone who according to research can never love me. I am so lost in life. I feel cheated and I feel hurt. I am sad with all that I am learning. Where does my life lead now? At times like today. Valentines, and given the last time I was here in AZ was with my ex and I feel like reaching out. Trying to salvage something. Maybe there is hope. Maybe we can talk. It’s been 4 months no contact and I feel alone in this world. I know it’s not the right thing to do but my emotions are getting the best of me. I’m sorry to be so all over the place but this is how my mind and emotions work these days. Always something new. Always a new challenge. Thank you for being the support I’ve needed at times.