Dear anita,

what you wrote there could be the truth. When I was younger I had so many dreams about travelling, writing books etc. But at some point it stopped being important. I got this feeling like: “I wish I wouldn’t wake up in the morning anymore.” I felt like nothing mattered any longer. I didn’t feel much.

I have been through a lot, lots of bad experiences. But I want to work on myself to improve my life and get better in the future.

Recently I got more in touch with my feelings again. I think it is because of talking to you and also my therapist.

But at the moment those feelings are mostly negative, negative feelings about myself. I regret humiliating myself for a person that didn’t even care about me, just to not disappoint them. But this is in the past now, I have to move on from this. I have to forgive myself and be kind to myself. I really feel mentally exhausted at the moment. It would be nice to get away for some days… But I can at least go for walks or yoga class to calm down and heal myself.