Shelby,

No worries at all, I myself have been up and down and taking longer than usual to respond due to lack of energy so completely no need to apologise! I check back here everyday, even if I don’t have the energy to respond! Sometimes it’s good to take some time out.

The first part of your response is so accurate, you have hit the nail on the head, I feel the same, exactly the same although less to do with heartbreaks as I just don’t think it has anything to do with that anymore (maybe it never did, who knows?) I think mine is more to do with just the confusion of life in general at the moment. I too am not making any conclusions, completely unable to figure myself out, I have no idea who I am and as a result I just continue ‘being’ getting on with my day sort of thing. I can relate and believe me, I know it is very very exhausting and I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way. As I keep saying, something needs to shift…

I thought about your question and I honestly couldn’t tell you. I’m like 100 ideas per second nowadays most of which I’m too terrified to do anything with if I’m honest. I want to move because I feel I need that privacy and personal space to aid me in my healing journey and at the same time I don’t want to take away from myself the comfort of being able to be on my own (in my room) but not completely on my own as there are other people in the house. I think a part of me is also scared that once I do move I will completely shut myself off to the world and away from everyone because I have done that already to a major extent and don’t get me wrong although I feel it’s needed right now maybe it’s not the best thing for me in the long run? I honestly do not know, I have no answers Shelby. It’s almost like I am waiting for some big epiphany like AHA!!! THIS IS IT! THIS IS THE ANSWER!!!

Let me ask you the same question, what do YOU think is the best way to deal with your situation?