Dear gj:

I read your previous posts of last year as well as this one.

Here is what I figure, and I will put it simply and to the point, then I will ask you if I my understanding is correct:

As a child you were unhappy with what you experienced, maybe your mother was sad a lot and you wanted to make her happy, maybe you saw her struggle and you wanted to make her life easier. You tried again and again, you tried this and that, but all your efforts failed. So you gave up, gave up hoping that there is something you can do to make a difference.

And so, you go through life with the mindset, the core belief, that you are powerless, that there is nothing you can do to make a difference. And so, you feel no calling, no solid interests, no passion, no ambition, not knowing what it is that you want.

Do I understand correctly?

anita