I need to get a situation of my chest also…

The last time I seen my ex what a week ago, he picked my up from a night out, I was extremely drunk.

He wanted to sleep with me, but I never. I know what he would do. He would just leave me anyway like I was nothing and run home and play happy families at home.

We got into a heated argument regarding the new girlfriend, as said something insulting not that I can remember what. He stuck up for her, which enraged me. How can he stick up for her when he wants to see me? How can I have respect for his new supply when he obviously has no respect for her himself?

So once the argument started I actually got really mad with him, I chased him down the road and actually hit him.

I’m so so so disgusted and appalled at my behavior its actually eating me up. Its like tables have turned and now i’m the bad person. I have tried to apologize and even emailed.

Its the first time in a year I have lost control of my feelings with him, I am still so hurt by him, I could not control myself.

I feel awful I know this time I am in the wrong. I the guilt is killing me. Being drunk is no excuse for my behavior.  I’m ashamed i’m even telling people but I need to get it off my chest.

Sorry B x