Hi all,

Thanks for the input. He wasn’t like that at the start. Gradually, he started to reveal all these to me and I really thought is my fault for making him this way. As time pass, although I have some awareness that it isn’t right for him to treat me like that, I stayed because I thought if I stayed long enough and convince him that I love him, he will change.

I grew up in a family where I’m not close to my dad. My dad used to hit me when I’m younger and our relationship turned very sour after which. We talked less than 5 sentences everyday and its all mundane stuff. I have an elder brother who I’m not close to while I’m very close to my mum.

Deep down, I still feel very empty like something is missing in my life. Every time my ex and I  quarrelled I will get very distressed when he ignores me and begs him not to. The feeling is just like “I’m gonna lose everything”. I don’t know what is wrong with me and why would I need someone like that to fill the emptiness in my heart. Even though he treated me badly, I thought it is better to have him than no one.