Thank you for explaining, anita.

I have never done all that for anyone nor have i seen anyone do that. Do you think people do all that because they know they are expected to? Would it still be love if you have to tell someone the way you have to be treated?

And another thing – you mentioned that I maybe demotivated due to a lack of love – but i see well functioning people like my cousins that are like machines, they do not have love either yet they don’t struggle like I do. I am worried I may not be able to fix this. I don’t think i should move for love. I don’t want to depend on another person for anything. If i go looking for love, believing it will help me move forward in life, it will be devastating. Reality so far has been that I get rejected for my looks. I have no hope of going on dates and finding love.