Good evening all,

Trio – thank you for your kind words, peace is very much more than welcome my way! I need it! I’m not sure how far back you’ve read on our stories as I can imagine it’s quite a read at this point but both myself and Shelby are quite the ‘we need to understand’ kind of types also… I think after suffering for so long I have come to the conclusion that not all things in life are to be understood.. it is a really tough cookie to accept or UNDERSTAND as ironic as it may sound. We literally sometimes will not get the answers that we want or need and that is that. In all this confusion and uncertainty right now you are entirely entitled to grieve.. you will feel sad, you will feel pain, you will feel it all. And I don’t know how long it’ll last or that it’ll easy but what I can tell you is that you are not alone. We are all here because we are human and we are suffering and sometimes we just need a few pick me up words, even if it is in online form. You’ll find the people here start to feel more like dear friends after a while. Myself and Shelby have been in communication for about 6/7 months now and Michelle just shortly after that and honestly, I don’t know what I would’ve done without. Please keep writing, keep sharing, keep getting it all out because it really does help!

Griff – Firstly, a huge congratulations on the new job! Good on you! I hope your first day at work goes as well as it possibly could and that this is a start of something great for you! A fresh clean slate of new opportunities, new connections, a shift in focus!

Ah the dreaded checking of the phone! I’ve been there many times! I’m so sorry to hear of your pain! The best solution for me in times of ‘I can’t see end of the tunnel’ was distraction. I would take myself to the gym or watch a good series on Netflix and kind of got through in autopilot mode until the following day, and usually the following day, even if for a little while, it wouldn’t feel so intense.

Try to focus your energy this evening on the big day tomorrow. Set your alarm. Have a relaxing bath. Prepare your clothes, lunch or whatever else it may be so you have a stress free morning. Look into your travel arrangements etc. Focus, focus on something that requires your focus in the here and now. Then do something nice for yourself, perhaps read a nice book, watch a good programme and make sure you get enough sleep!

I hope all goes well tomorrow and I look forward to hearing from you!

Shelby & Michelle, thinking of you both! I hope you’re well!