Hi Guys,

I have avoided coming on here for a few days, well not just on here the net in general, so that I dont stalk him or her.

Everything everyone says is so right, I just find it hard to believe. My mind gets so consumed by the thought of him whether it is good or bad. I have been totally thrown of the map by him. I know I shouldn’t expect anything else, this is what he is.

Still hurts never the less.

I am totally sick in trying to figure him out after so long. I am so sick of the situation but still find it hard to move on and forget something that no longer matters. I think I want answers, or some kind of satisfaction in knowing eventually he will get what he deserves. Maybe he never will. I cannot quite understand how one person can inflict some much pain, so much hurt and misery and stroll though life without a care in the world.

I am not a stupid person, I have continuously read online about people like him yet, it still has not sunk in.

I hope one day I will just be free mind body and soul of anything to do with him.

I hope you are all well and thank you for your support, sometimes just writing on here can make everything seem so much better.

Hope you all receive this well.

B