Hi Everyone,

Thank you for all taking the time to respond to my post, the narc has avoided contact for two weeks, BUT the mother returned today with the sister.

Having no contact with the narc gives me some sort of peace but I know he will return eventually. God knows when or what for? They are never far behind and that is why you are always waiting?

I don’t understand why the mom or the sister are contacting me, are they being genuine? or are the using to me for the purpose?

Its horrible never knowing what someone else’s attentions are?

I honestly try and try to keep going being positive, I have even listened to the recommendation “YT from a monk, Ajahn Brahm titled “How to deal with abusive relationships.”

What a beautiful peaceful thing to listen to while your mind runs wiled.  Its so nice for the mind to stop speaking to its self and listen to something useful. I drifted off to sleep last night.

When I wake he returns, or the family have.

I hope you are all well, I hope your live is treating you with kindness and love I am so grateful from the bottom of my heart to be able to write on here even when I can not find the words to make sense to myself

Loving you always B