Christine,

You have this history of being hurt so many times and being used.  I’m so helpless.

My take is that regardless whether he is a successful, professional athlete or not, you are gun shy and self described as “helpless.”  This is not a good mental state to be in to start any relationship.  I am curious if you done any work on yourself in understanding why you have chosen men who have used you.  Plus feeling helpless does not make you an empowered woman.

I would guess as a successful man, I can be initially attracted to a helpless woman but either (1) I would soon tire of that and leave her or (2) I would take advantage of her.  Either way, a helpless woman would not be my equal if I was this self-confident man.

Does that make sense?
Mark