Thank you so much Mark. This was helpful. I have to balance being with my sadness and also participate and connect somewhat with people.

The place where I struggle the most is letting go and trusting. I am trying not to give attention to my negative story but it keeps coming back – I will not find anyone, I will be alone all my life, I will not able to hold any relationship…sometimes at that time I just chant a mantra inside to disassociate with this thinking pattern but sometimes it overtakes me and I feel like not doing anything. That’s when I envy people who are happy drinking, partying and not going deep inside and people who are sensitive care about others hurts alot.

However, your advice is good – the time when negativity is clouding me, just move around, take a walk, go out..I know at some level this is what I should be doing but my body doesn’t want to move..

Thanks again,

Sona