Hey – wonderful to hear from you again Kkasxo, though sad to read how much you’ve been struggling again. I’m not convinced any of us can ever know exactly where things are going or where it ends but I think I understand what you mean.  I can understand feeling like you don’t have the energy to fight anymore and tbh I don’t think fighting against something often works anyway, it just ends up with you being exhausted eventually, and the stronger you are it just takes longer to get there.

So I think accepting it is actually a step forwards bizarrely, as it is only when you accept you are at the bottom and effectively give up that you actually are freed to move forwards, not expecting anything, not forcing anything, just being. That’s how it has always panned out for me anyway. And then at some future point you suddenly realise that by not trying to fight it, not trying to be better, you have somehow come through it. I’m not giving up hope for you and we’ll be here when we can help or just to listen, whatever you need. It’s just good to hear from you.

Ah Shelby, jaw must have literally dropped eh, glad you didn’t waste any tea though… I’m also glad you at least told him it’s not exactly a brilliant way to treat you after your weekend…. Though I’m a bit confused, I thought he didn’t initiate any contact after the weekend as that’s why you eventually had to cave in to doing so – but you mention he thought you weren’t interested as he’d reached out twice? Weird – and defn need to communicate better. Is he going to stay in touch whilst he travels?

We’re in our last place now before we return to the UK next week. It’s such a wonderful way to explore the world, slowly, no hurry, simple decisions – it really does bring back life to the basics of ‘where are we sleeping and what are we eating – and do I have any clean socks……!!’  The markets here are great fun, I’m somehow the better haggler than my other half so I’ve been practicing that and it’s actually quite good fun if you keep it respectful and remember how much better off we are. I’m not much of a shopper so it’s funny when they get all excited at first and then realise no, I really do mean it, I am really quite happy with just buying the one pair of sandals as my other ones have finally literally fallen to pieces….will be wandering off the beach in a bit, find some lunch…..they do awesome sandwiches here for less than a £1 with beer, tough life eh…