Hi Shelby,

You’re right, it is beyond frightening because none of us were prepared for it. I suppose not like that, not yesterday. I didn’t sleep a wink last night I just couldn’t. Today was spent organising the death certificate, district nurses attending for their equipment and arranging for the funeral home to come and collect the body. I tried to help as much as I could because the poor ladies daughter speaks limited English.

I did appreciate therapy today. A lot. My little runaway reprieve. And then after therapy I went to a viewing with the man himself. Sat in silence the whole way there and back simply because I have no words for him, I am exhausted with everything. He dropped me home we said our goodbyes and off he went. Not great at all.

How are you coping with the ex being away Shelby? Are you guys communicating still?