Also:

Everyday I feel guilt because he also started using drugs and I feel it’s because he couldn’t cope but he wouldn’t tell me! I also feel guilty because I think that I took away the chance for him to find true love and took away the chance for him to find happiness and what he truly wants! I feel bad for coming between him and Yvonne since it looked like they had natural chemistry and she was genuinely interested! Also they had a Lot in common like doing sports! And she told me she’s very clingy and can’t be without a boyfriend like she would cry when she’s left alone exactly like Oliver would cry when I would leave for work! So this makes me think they have the same attachment style and would be a perfect match since they don’t want to be alone ever! I feel bad for not being the right one! And these thoughts kill me!