Hi Michelle,

Thanks for the advice as always. To be honest, I thought I HAD reached my time limit….the first time…..then the second time….lol….and yet it just keeps going! I seem to want to try over and over and over again. I agree that not giving any answer is a way of staying at the crossroads, then you can hang out there forever and never actually have to choose a road.

I definitely think he feels that life will restrict him, yet I have seem glimpses of times when I truly feel it’s what his heart wants deep deep down. As i mentioned before he has an avoidant attachment style so naturally enough when things get too serious, he pulls back and starts finding excuses and reasons as such being restricted. Why he has that style I don’t know….that would be for a therapist to figure out I guess!

I don’t want to waste my life for sure, I don’t know what I’m doing this. I just feel he’s so special. But don’t get me wrong, there are times I start to wonder why he doesn’t see how special I am, he does to an extent that he is comfortable with, but not what I had hoped for I suppose.

I am super burnt out these days, the course and my work and other commitments are really wiping me, I’m exhausted! I would love a holiday but honestly am flat broke and can barely make ends meet. Hopefully after my course, things will ease off and I can get a small loan to go travelling. However, I’m in incredible pain today with my back (chronic pain) so I get worried about making such a long trip abroad as flying or sitting in buses etc is very difficult for me. When I flew to America a few years ago I splashed out for business class seats so that i could use the flat out bed for my back, but those heady days of having money are long gone!

I have not heard of that house minding arrangement, wow, what an excellent plan….is there a dedicated website for things like that?