Hi Michelle,

I don’t disagree with what you said. Thanks for taking the time to go through the whole situation in that way.

I’m not afraid of working on myself & if I have perhaps backed off from suggestions in that direction previously, even from others on this forum, it was because I have reservations about potential damage.

I spoke to my therapist in the past & genuinely I have a lot of respect for him, he’s good at what he does, and he was quite concerned about people online offering ‘psychological advice’ and what they were ultimately getting out of it themselves.

Now I hope you understand that I’m just being as honest as I can be. Because this is an online forum, I have always kind of had this last level or layer of protection about myself. I’m sure if we met in person, we’d get on like a house on fire and be lovely friends and I’m very glad you take the time to offer advice on an ongoing basis. I appreciate it probably more than you know.

I completely understand your perspective and that you believe it to be counterproductive to continue contributing to a conversation about my situation with my ex, so honestly I take no offence whatsoever for you detach from that element.

Im not wary of working on myself, just perhaps of doing it incorrectly or causing damage in some way. In my line of work, I have learned to become quite cynical in certain ways!

I will continue to look forward to your tales from all your trips as I definitely feel they give me perspective. Again, I’m not rejecting your offer as such, I’m just wary. I certainly appreciate the offer and the manner in which you conveyed it in a non-threatening, non-pushy way.

This you may simply clock up to me being unwillingly to work on myself, and there is nothing I can do to change your mind on that, as it seems a reasonable assumption. However, all I can say is that the idea of making my own inner self strong and happy sounds amazing and genuinely something I would be interested in, but just not sure if this forum sits well in my gut as the route for me….

Kkasxo,

You definitely sound like you’re up for being proactive- do you think that is a change from where you were maybe a fortnight ago- when you felt completely depleted? You definitely sound like you have more energy now, even if not happier, perhaps looking for a way out of the tunnel?