Dear Lilly:

Putting together information from this thread and your previous threads: you are now 16. When you were 4, your parents divorced and both your parents dated other people since, your mother more than your father. You live with your mother, her boyfriend (now engaged), and your critical, emotionally abusive grandmother.

In your home, you feel the following: “trapped, unseen, unheard… lost, angry, alone, used… lonely.. like no one genuinely wants to check in with me, I’m just the happy goofy person that everyone likes having around but it’s like inside I’m just so confused tired angry and like alone… it just feels like they don’t SEE me… Feels like no one really takes the time to give a crap about me”.

Reads like your mother’s priority has been the men in her life, her past relationships and now, her current, and her boyfriend’s priority is your mother, while your grandmother’s priority is to give everyone a hard time (or just you?)-

– so you are no one’s priority at home, correct?

I wonder what motivates you to act “happy goofy” when you feel sad and angry and lonely, is it because when you acted sad or angry you were criticized for it, so you act happy to avoid criticism?

anita