Everytime we were fighting and he wanted to leave him alone to calm down I had bad anxiety attacks and I felt so scared to lose him I just wanted him to love me again and stop being mad and angry at me… So in those moments I couldn’t really know how I feel. If he would want to break up now for example…. I won’t feel like I’m okay with it, I would feel hurt that he left me and I would feel like a victim.

But now when he’s so great to me and understanding and loving I feel like I have the freedom to know how I feel without the fear of being left.