Hi anita,

I am sorry if anything that i said or did gave the impression that i was angry, i never was. Closed? yes, but not rigid.I am trying to change and with that there is resistance. Sometimes i fight through it and at other times I let it take over me. The only reason I have not discussed about my mother here is that i was looking for an explanation of the world in general. But you are right, there are expectations I am projecting onto the world out of my needs that were unfulfilled by my family.

I want to reply in greater length, i have a lot to share with you but I feel drained. Emotionally and physically – that is the only reason I am not replying. Please trust this bird is telling the truth 🙂 I will actually post on the other thread or would you prefer if it is here?  I had been meaning to ask your opinion on a few things that kind of made me rethink some of the things we discussed.

Our previous communications are valuable to me. They really changed the way I saw myself. I would not ever hesitate to recollect them ever. I am still just as grateful to you now as i was to you back then. I know you are on my side here and it feels great to have that. 🙂