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Dear Dan:
In 2014 you wrote about your son’s mother: “this woman is a brilliant mother to my son & literally have nothing to worry about or fear for his safety. I sleep easy at night knowing he is in good hands with her & that he is safe”.
You believe that your son is safe in the custody of his mother, and the courts agree with you, this is why she has custody of him. Your son’s mother believes that your son is not safe with you and the court agrees with her, this is why you can’t see him without supervision: “We were at court a few months ago because I was trying to get my contact with my child move out of a supervised centre… court didn’t work because she made me look really bad with Facebook and twitter statuses that I was venting about it in” (2014).
At one time, you wanted to take your son to the cinema, outside of court supervision, so you asked his mother, “if I could take my son to the cinema.. since I won’t make it to the contact centre in time. No. She will only allow either the contact cetre or his home until she feels comfortable to even think about anything else”.
You went to court for the purpose of getting unsupervised time with your son, but she produced some evidence of what you posted on Facebook and twitter. A clue as to what you posted there is in your 2014 thread: “I have wished may horrible things to happen to her (your son’s mother) & her whole family… I hate every single person in her entire family, her friends, people she works with & anyone else who knows her & likes her. I have wished her pain & suffering. I have promised myself I’ll get revenge. I have even periodically made her aware that I will never let it go & that retribution will avail some day”.
You are about hate, Dan. “I’ve been angry so long that it has become part of me… it’s just there, deep down my soul… I’m not a bad person. I’m a good person, who has been treated badly”-
– what evidence do you have to indicate that you are a good person?
anita