Hi Lost Soul,

Thank you for your reply.

There is no such thing as the perfect person.  We are all a “work in progress”.  Some people recognize that and others go through life somewhat blindly.  You have clearly given a lot of thought to everything that has happened to you through life.

You suffered a lot of rejection in childhood and every time you get rejected by someone that childhood button is pressed.  You are never going to be able to change what happened in those early years but you can change the framework in which you choose to see it.  Your parents were “flawed”, your siblings became “flawed” along with any other bully that you came into contact with.  We are all victims of victims – it’s passed down through families with each child behaving in some way like the parent that went before.  I am in no way excusing what happened to you.

Learning to love yourself, warts and all, is the key to overcoming the negative belief systems that have been installed into you.  Send love to that little child and send love to that grown woman.  This is a really important part of the healing process.

You have worth and you have value and you are worthy of respect.  That’s an outsider’s opinion.  I believe it.  You need to believe it.  The fact that we are communicating with each other gives both of us a value/worth.  Everyone who has replied to you is fulfilling a need within themselves.  

Peggy