I understand and feel that. But I’m trying so hard to calm the anxiety down. It has completely taken over. I feel it in my body. I feel it in my head. My thoughts beliefs ands values are changing as we speak. It is so scary. Will I ever feel like me again?

Scared to take meds again. With no one to look after me.

and I keep thinking of going back to family not for love just for some damn help! How can I do this all alone with all of the trauma I have been through?

Mom about to explode!!