Thanks, Peggy.  I normally write but my thoughts are so convoluted that I don’t even know where to begin. I’m hoping in time, I’ll naturally feel better.

Anita – sorry for confusion. I felt/feel like there is something off about it being hidden from me, but other mutual friends knowing. Overall, just confused, hurt and makes me feel more removed from her.  I also question my ability to move forward, trust and disclose very personal issues as I’ve done so for the many past years. I feel like there is something wrong with me and it’s a pretty lousy feeling. I’m sure I’ll cess out this stuff over time but right now, I’m not comfortable or interested in talking with her. I don’t want to fight, I just want space. Mutual friends have reached out to me but I just don’t feel like talking. The depression/sadness I’ve felt in the last two days isn’t something anyone can understand.