Anita and Michelle,

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and reply.

You are right, none of this is his fault…

I try to be loving but somehow my moods keep switching.

He’s my best friend and basically the only person I trust, so I feel bad because I do worry and bring a lot of stress…

I try to think in a positive way, that I can take this time to work/focus on myself, study, then not long after that I go back to feeling miserable and depressed.

I’m feeling a lot of anger, if we don’t get a refund for those things we had already booked, we probably won’t get a vacation, I also haven’t seen him in 5 months, it’s awful.

He didn’t have a choice of staying with me, or me going with him because of his contract.

So our options were either to break up or survive this year apart.

I can’t afford losing him.

I do agree with everything you said, I need to be stronger and stay calm in these situations..

I have just been having a really hard time controlling my emotions, especially not knowing when I’ll see him.