Dear Gaia:

I just looked at your previous thread of May 2018 and noticed that I didn’t reply to your last post there which was addressed to me. I have no doubt that I didn’t reply because I wasn’t aware at the time that you posted that last May 16 post. (Often a submitted post does not appear under the list of Topics).

Having read our previous communication in that thread and your original post in your new thread, I figure that what is happening is that you carry a lot of anger with you because as a child your life was heavy, heavy with your mother’s distress. You were jealous, you shared there, of other children because “their mother.. (was) Always light-hearted”.

Your mother worked a lot outside the home and when she was home.. she was heavy, emotional, self pitying, troubled. A heavy mother-> a heavy child.

A peer in school bullied you, you experienced different injustices in life, but the injustice most powerful in a child’s mind-and-heart is that her mother suffers. The child’s  mother is the most important person in the child’s mind and heart, the best person in the world, and to watch her suffer brings about a strong sense of injustice and the emotional reaction to such injustice is anger.

What do you think?

anita