Oh sweetheart! Bless you and your beautiful soul. Let me begin by saying what makes an incredible person is the ability to see life through others eyes and feel for them. I hear you and your hurt for this boy and I admire your empathy for him but you have to remember, this is your life too. Sometimes in life as we face tough decisions like this we need to remember our reasoning and reassure ourselves that we are doing what serves the greater good. For example, say your guilt convinces you to go back with this boy…… you will be in a relationship that you are not able to move freely through and then you will begin to feel stiffled from your growth and you will cause him and yourself more hurt by becoming resentful. Trust me, I stayed in a relationship while feeling the same way and it ended up with us not being friends at all. It still kills me to know that I hurt someone I cared for so deeply because I didn’t just have the strength to stand my ground and maintain my space and freedom. I caved and began to hate him for invading my life with demands that I couldn’t meet without sacrificing my sanity…. I should have just said no thank you in the very beginning. You, my dear are so ahead already in this world by being able to listen to your inner voice and know what you want. Stop carrying the guilt. There is no harm in what you’ve done. I would advise you however, to give him some space to heal….. being someone with a broken heart and spending every day with the person you hurt for just opens that wound deeper every time. Please remember that you have so much life ahead of you as does he and maybe someday your paths will cross again later in life and it may be the right time then but please, I beg you…… never feel guilty for being true to yourself. Treat others with dignity and respect while being true to yourself and in the end the world will be yours.

Good luck.