So not much has been happening in the month I have been gone. Got my motorbike book to learn to practice before I look to get my license, also found a guy on youtube who I swear understands me inside what I want in life and how I think it should be (he used to be a pickup artist but PUA aint for me, just a certain mindset I want). As for the girl…I was really angry and had to start meditating on forgiveness and called her up a week later and forgave her and told her sorry and don’t want money to get between us like she told me last time we hiked. Anyway she went on a 2 week visit of her family on the East coast with him, they drove back.

Apparently he is not much on sharing/expressing his feelings (like me) but I told her it’s a guy thing, men are conditioned to hide their feelings and it’s been that way for a long time, we are expected to. Anyway she told me they had to break their engagement. Apparently I just found out 1 month into their  relationship they got engaged, I told her that’s normal for a new relationship to be all high on those new relationship feelings for many months. Things were changing between them, he felt like she was distant and other things, told her it was an elephant in the room. So they are no longer engaged and she’s going to learn more about him, and she has been sounding not the same when talking about him, like with the pausing about things but things have been better since they broke the engagement, she was like the feeling was of a new really good friendship with someone when you click and stuff. They are also in no rush to move any time soon, might not even move but looking to make a yurt

Anyway we talked for a half hour, she had to do some stuff Told me she wants to get a coffee or a hike soon, mentioned about that huge mountain but we agreed the weather is changing so another time, so most likely a coffee only, but only if she’s in the area that I am not going to get her to drive here from her new place.

Also talked about my motorbike stuff…wont be riding it on the highway after my license for at least a year, rather be safe than dead. I don’t feel angry about the money anymore since I forgave her and said sorry, but that was mostly for me not her. I had too, I was WAAAY too angry. Not thought of the money ONCE since. Also back into keto full time. Recently started putting my veggies into a vitamix blender with strawberries to taste better and just added stevia for more better taste today. Also recently got into liver after hearing how it’s the best thing to ever eat with how nutrient dense it is. Also getting into *yuck* sardines for the benefits. Whatever, it’s only food…don’t need to like it, just need to eat it for the benefits and feel better.

I’ll post again some other time. Peace!