Brandy,

i would tell my friend that he sounds totally confused. From the sounds of it, you either need to stick to your decision and be comfortable with it, or figure out whether your expectations on attraction are real or not.

i guess we like what we like, and we desire by instinct. If something is telling us “no” or “we dont like it”, its not something thats easily controlled.

its a crazy thought. Every time we would get together, i would find her attractive, until the physical part started. The last time i saw her, which was a few weeks ago at a work event, i found her very attractive and my heart was racing as if i was extremely nervous. I dont know if its the face that she seems more desirable to me because, i thought i could get her back on my own terms, but she has turned me down and is now more attractive based on that fact?

i honestly never expected this situation to turn out the way it did. Its for a reason, and we will find out what that reason is in time.