Hi, I do remember you and your question and it comes back to me time to time and I think I know now. I have an older sister with problems, mental problems that caused a lot of stressed with th he family. And I remember the fights, the stress, the tears, and think I dont want to be like her. I can’t be like her, then in high school i developed bad anxiety.

There was one key point that showed the damaged and it was I didnt want to take medication because I didnt want to be like her. I told myself i was a freak and a weirdo.

I’m in the process for Medicare so hopeful soon I can get the help I need.