i think my biggest fear is being old and alone and never really being loved. I know this hurt stems from having daddy issues… god i hate saying that it sounds so pathetic. but i guess my need to be loved comes from being really close to my father at a young age and than he leaving and my parents divorcing and him creating his own life having another kid. i just recently came to terms with this. now im in the process of trying to not let me past pain control me anymore i want to be strong and “fixed” im just stumbling to find my path. iv heard of meditating but have no idea how to do it nor have money to join a class anywhere. so im going the motions the best way i can.