Dear Kartik:

“They became more and more abusive.. towards me (when I do something wrong)”- it is they who did something wrong, not you. Abusing you was the wrong thing to do!

Your mother told you that “she did not want me because of the fear of becoming a bad mother”- when she abused you, she was a bad mother. I suggested earlier to look at what is deep within you: how your parents treated you as a child is.. deep within you.

I will soon be away from the computer for a few hours, maybe as long as 15 hours from now. Please add anything at all that comes to your mind about the fights between your parents, how they abused each other and you, and/ or anything that may be relevant to looking deep within you.  I will read and reply to you when I am back.

anita