Another long one haha. I’ll respond sometime soon to it, but she did not respond to my question, so I asked if everything is ok? today at my time she always responds to (between 8-9AM) and she said oh yes and thanks for the invite and she’s not sure her schedule yet but maybe the after party, but I said there is none I was just gonna ask if anyone wants to do something after, did not find out about the hockey game time until after so maybe another time. Then she said yeah and to let her know if there is a casual get together sometime and to have a nice day.

Basically what I plan on doing is talking to her about the updates, ask about her crazy ex boyfriends sister if they still talk, about what her life was like growing up, then telling her once again I wish nothing but to see her happy, healthy, free,  succeed in everything she does, thanks for being in my life  all these years,  that from this point on all I want is beautiful moments for her and to wish her well on her life journey and then hang up and block her. I have to block her, I can’t keep dealing with these emotions and dealing with a non reciprocal friend that I just wanna spend time with that doesn’t wanna spend time with me. I want what I want and that’s it. I wont make some dramatic goodbye scene, who knows we may pick things off 10 or 20 years from now and I can tell her why I left but she will know that atleast I cared about her well being deeply.