@shelbyville

thanks chick for replying.  It’s been a rollercoaster 24 hrs the sick feeling in my stomach turns out I’m pregnant! Yes I’m having his baby and now I’m petrified and feeling all kinds of crazy thoughts.

This is first time me and him broke up after 2 years together . OMG!!!!!! I didnt realise u went bck 3 times. I wouldn’t stand for that much shit off any bf tbh sometimes you gotta love yourself to realise you deserve better ….you are right! . Also dnt u think he text u because u went 7 months clear nc after always giving in PREV. Occasions like bdays are perfect excuse for an ego boast or check u still hooked somehow. Good on u for throwing away the key seems like u been through too much..like when will u hav been enough fifth ? Sixth, tenth time ? When u had destroyed any self esteem u had left and then left to feel unworthy eventually u both would have toxic rship.

I i love him my ex more than anything in the world and want him to commit but if he doesn’t realise it after one chance 1st then never will which is why I dnt want to tell him abt baby. I dnt want him to do it for that reason then resent me and our child. Everything has shifted for me in 24hrs.. until I knw where he is at my pain from feeling the loneliness and devastation of the breakup, feeling I will never find someone else feeling unworthy for not having my love for him returned in being chosen to be his forever has switched off. simply by this new being entering my life. Made me realise is he really the kind of guy I’d want to raise my child with if he can’t even love me enough to commit to me. Will he just keep coming and going again..? I dnt want that. I DESERVE BETTER. We all deserve to have someone love us and choose us. This site has helped so much. Thanks so much chick.

Ill keep u updated.