Dear Gaia:

Don’t worry about making sense or not, and no need to sugar-coat what you feel or think. Personally, I  prefer that you do not sugar coat what you think and feel.

I feel bad about you feeling so bad. Because I know too well, how it feels to feel bad, for so long. I know how it feels to suffer, as you do. As I imagined just now, a non-suffering Gaia- it made me smile, it felt good. How I wish this was the case, soon enough, that you will no longer suffer.

A few days ago, after I wrote to you the last post, it occurred to me to ask you something. Thing is I don’t want to trouble you by asking this, so answer if you can. You wrote that your mother was/ is overbearing, dramatic and so forth. But what did/ does she actually say to you?

If you can, will you type a paragraph or two of what she says, paraphrased if you don’t remember her words exactly, typing away in the first person: “I…” as if you are her, saying what she said/ says to you.

I am asking this today, even though you feel badly, is because there is something I am missing, and if I find out what it is, maybe I will be able to help you a bit.

anita