Dear Janus, Earth Angel and Poet:

You know your priorities: spiritual (ex. helping the transgender communication via your poems, maybe putting together meditations for transgenders, I am thinking… ) as well as social and medical transitioning. Third priority is your science education and planned scientific career.

You shared before about your difficultly with filling in scientific reports- it is a kind of writing that is restricted to a strict, predetermined format, the scientific report format. It is very different from creative writing, which is not restricted to any format. It is a free kind of writing which you feel comfortable with.

It leads me to think about how you don’t like to be restricted to the body format you were born with. And you don’t want to be restricted to social expectations regarding that physical format you were born with.

“I don’t want any material gain, I just want to feel alive in myself”- a very strong statement. Clearly, you need to make money so to live independently and finance your transitioning. It will be wise to aim at working for an employer who offers a generous health insurance that will pay for transitioning.

To feel alive in yourself, you expressed that you are sure that you have to transition, that is, to  free yourself from the bodily format that you were born with, and from social expectation regarding that birth format.

You can’t pay for the first, but what about the second- what if you can free yourself now from social expectations regarding that birth bodily format. What if you aim at feeling more comfortable acting masculine while not having facial hair and while your chest is not flat.. and while you may have this curve or that-

-is it possible, to act confidently masculine while your form is as it is now?

anita