Dear Frederick:

Yes, I mean you shouldn’t be dressing up for the food delivery guy “to get him sexually excited” because when he delivers food to you, he is performing his job duty: to deliver food. His job duty is not to attend to your sexual needs.

In addition to the above, the people living in your house can be very surprised indeed if and when they see you dressed in the way you described, and that can cause great discomfort for all parties, and you might get evicted. Better to prevent such unpleasant experiences.

“what should I do?”-

– Wikipedia has an entry on Transvestic fetishism. It says: Transvestic fetishism is a psychiatric diagnosis applied to those who are thought to have an excessive sexual or erotic interest in cross-dressing.. It differs from cross-dressing for entertainment or other purposes that do not involve sexual arousal, and is categorized as paraphilia (“the experience of intense sexual arousal to atypical objects, situations, fantasies, behaviors”) in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders.”

* You wrote in your original post: “I’m a boy with a short structure and that features is a disadvantage for boys”- it is possible that you suffer from gender dysphoria as well.

In summary: I suggest that you make an appointment with a medical doctor, a psychiatrist, for an evaluation. The psychiatrist, one who is familiar with Transvestic fetishism (and with gender dysphoria, if it applies to you), will be able to advise you further.

anita