Hi Freya, I know how you are feeling, and I know  the drastic change in your life after having kids.  Just know you are not alone. Having kids is hard, beeing a good parent is hard. But it gets better I promise. I think you already did the first step in changing your life, you realised that you need a change. Take time for yourself, think what you need and do that for yourself. start small, 15 min a day of your own time, and then 20, 30 and so on, as circumstances allow. If you look you will recognise a knowing look among parents with young children, we all feel the same, you are member of a tired, bored, exsausted parent club, and it is ok, it is a cool club. Kids change your rythm but not the way you live your life, you choose that… hope this helps. Been there…sorry for the spelling English is not my first language.