Dear Gaia:

You made a very strong statement that deserves repeating part by part:

“For now I only feel fear”-  you can see that it can change, that tomorrow (a day after, a month after, don’t know), you will no longer feel only fear, that your emotional experience of  life can and will change.

“I hope this fear may turn into inspiration one day”- you hope, this is very powerful. With no hope we are hopeless with no motivation to make positive changes in our lives.

“I’m sick of fearing, suffering, grieving and raging, sick of obsessing, longing and not feeling nothing”- this means you don’t want to feel these things anymore, you don’t want this emotional experience of life to be permanent. You want a different feel for life. Having this intention is crucial for making the changes that you need to make.

“I only welcome positive experiences and uplifting thoughts from now, I really deserve it”- yes you do, you deserve a better, way better life. Put it differently: you don’t deserve to suffer.

My input on the totality of this very powerful statement that you made, (best and most powerful statement I read from you): it will not be easy or fast because your brain is in the chemical habit of obsessing and raging and leading you to behavioral habits of inactivity and daydreaming. You can’t just decide to change these chemicals and behavioral habits- and make them go away. No one can do that.

I changed and am changing a few major habits and I will be glad to continue to share with you how I did/ am doing it, what worked for me and what didn’t work for me in my quest to no longer suffer unnecessarily and to have an improved and improving emotional experience of life.

anita