Thank you Anita it’s so beautifully said and I agree! Growing up I was always in a fight or flight mode I guess and that fear, that anxiety I got from it is still there, I know it I’ve always been anxious, and last year I remember my health anxiety feeling so so real but now almost a year later I realize ( partially) that it was all in my head that my anxiety had to hold onto something, but now I wish I was still struggling with it! I’ve been a wreck since the first time having doubts about my boyfriend, I don’t know what I should or shouldn’t do, my feelings aren’t there because I’m so so anxious I’m not letting myself feel anything; but I can’t help being triggered by every little thing he does, his face or actions sometimes (yes it has evolved) how I act and how I feel I’m always monitoring my feelings , other couples breaking up trigger me so much, videos and posts about « true love » make me want to die! And I don’t know what to do I’ve seen psychiatrists who didn’t give a damn about what I was telling them and I can’t help Google and ask people! I don’t want to lose my boyfriend he’s all I have but am I going to have to? What should I do ? How should I deal with this? It’s so hard and honestly I’ve never ever felt so low and depressed and just wanting to die and I don’t know where to seek help

thank you so much Anita for your wisdom and insight , means so much to me ❤️