One year later:

my mother recovered ! It is a true miracle, she still needs chemo but for the moment its under control and she is back home en feeling good.

With my sister, I sometimes hear her, we talk normally.

I met someone new in september , but he cant make up is mind if he wants to be with me or his ex, today he is deciding , again.

I hoped that he was the one, but apparantly not if he has this much trouble to decide. It’s killing me, that he will dump me.

the pain I felt last year was completely different, now it really hurts, if you want to be with some one

i’m seeing a therapist lately and that helps a bit.

people are strong, but not endlessly