@Genie sorry to hear you are having such a rough day. I know the exact feeling you are describing and it is sooo gripping. Shelby has given some good advice. We are all human, we all make mistakes, but anxiety makes us think that they are irreversible and that the way we are feeling is how we will always feel. This isn’t true, even though it feels like it is.

For now, I would just work on acknowledging and accepting what you are feeling. It is so tempting to want to reach out and try to ‘fix’ things when we are in this state but I agree with Shelby that that it may be best to just focus on yourself for now.Remember that a lot of what the intensity of what you are feeling is chemically driven and will decrease naturally over time. You just have to be kind to yourself in the meantime. Do you have any self care rituals that make you feel better – a bath, a favourite tv show, a favourite food?

Like Shelby said, try not to beat yourself up. Even though it may feel like this is a massive step back, it doesn’t detract from all the progress you’ve made til this point; progress isn’t linear. The fact that you are even trying in a new relationship is something to be admired. And regardless of what happens, you are such a kind and encouraging person and nothing can take that from you. You have been so lovely to me throughout this thread – so I think you’re great even if you don’t right now!

Hoping things get better from here. As you’d say to me ‘keep going chick, you’re doing amazing!’