Dear Catherine:

You referred to your high “levels of OCD and depression, as “this fog” that you’ve been in since you were 21, suggesting that this fog makes it “so hard to develop feelings for anyone”.

When you were 18 you did develop strong feelings for a guy, being “really in love”.

Maybe it is the OCD/ depression medication/s that you’ve been taking since you were 21 that is causing this fog and the numbing of your feelings, and the reason you were able to feel strongly at 18 was that you weren’t on medication at that time. Could this be it, partly perhaps?

anita