Dear Gaia:

This is what you wrote recently: “I do relate to the ‘too tired and bitter’.. internally exhausted.. I’ve lost myself a long time ago and now it’s kinda dead (myself).. the dry, ‘restrained’, irregular or even apathetic responding you get from me here in general my way of interacting with others.. I’m too lethargic or listless to even say coherent sentences when I talk”.

I googled the term you mentioned, soul loss, and read in the shamanatrix. com, “top 10 signs you are suffering from soul loss”, I will use their words but not necessarily in order:

Feeling like something is missing, the sensation that a part of the self is gone. Foggy memory, large chunks missing from your memory, Loss of joy, laughter, feel like you have to be tough, cold and mature and just make it through life, lost the sense of childlike wonder, Eyes that lack shine.. dull, lifeless, flat, Loss of power, Feeling stuck, like you can’t move forward, Feeling disconnected from yourself and others, Sensation of a broken, shattered or missing heart.

And still, on that website, it reads: “Soul loss happens when part of one’s soul disconnects during an incident of trauma, but trauma may mean different things to different people. Trauma can be described as anything threatening to the well-being.. Anything that happens to us and elicits a strong emotional response is relevant, no matter how ‘traumatic’ we may judge it to  be”.

– What is your Trauma, Gaia?

anita