Hi Paradox

Just remember tough times dont last. Tough people do.

Also instead of depending on your family to accept and approve your first you can work on become a giant and happy person first so your parents can rely on your shine.

As for friends start small, you do not need a cry over a shoulder friend if you cannot find yet, any companion , classmates, teachers who interact and smile and show small and kind gestures count. Build your support from those little moments and little connections and as you are helpful and can accept yourself and be happy , you can connect to friends at wider and deeper level.

Go for a walk, do exercises, study, listeb to music, pray, build your inner strength and joy

As long as you focus on those loving and nuturing things, people, connections, i hope you will get stronger and be joyful

It is a journey to get to know life and be open to its wonders.