ParadoxMusic:

Your answer to my question regarding what help you are looking for here is: to find a way to keep your personality hidden or change it so that you can make friends. The personality you want to hide or change is the one that enjoys gory death scenes in horror movies.

My suggestion is that you stop watching horror movies.

Another suggestion is that you reconsider my previous suggestion to you and seek counseling in your school and community, that you contact any mental health resource available to you, as soon as possible.

Aim at being a good person. Focus on behaving like a good person. A good person is not a person who participates in activities that harm others or yourself. Don’t harm others; don’t harm yourself.

Keep in mind the Buddhist principle: Do No Harm.

Whatever you feel- you can’t change, but what you do- you can change. You enjoy those gory movies- that what you feel. What you can change is what you do and what you don’t do.  So don’t go to those movies, don’t rent them, don’t play them, and seek mental health counseling.

anita