Dear blkhwkdwn1:

I am back earlier than I planned.

“Maybe I should have told her my feelings for her in the past? I didn’t wanna ruin things between us”- yes, I would have told her, if I was you. Tell her now- there is nothing to ruin, so tell her now. It will be a good practice for you to tell a person you’ve cared for, for so long, how you truly feel, the whole truth. Tell her in a matter of fact kind of a way, in a confident way (not in a whining way or so). It will be you respecting yourself by doing so. She will not respond negatively and you will feel better for being true to yourself.

“So maybe that’s what I have to do? Move on with my life, let her do her own thing and maybe down the line.. Worry about my life, how I want things and find people I want to be close with and have connections with”-

– YES, YES, YES!

Find people you want to be close with and have connections with, starting with one person, one special person. Be truthful with that person about how you feel and who you are, don’t pretend with that person to be happy-go-lucky when you are not. To thine own self be true— this is what love is about.Let your chosen person see who you really are and love you for it.

anita