Thank you everyone I just wanted to let you know my friend got so worried about my state of mind she ignored the lockdown rules and sent her husband to pick me up. I’m currently with her and her husband and feel awful. The hangover tomorrow and withdrawal is going to be hell. I don’t want to put her through that and she’s risked her wellbeing for me. How pathetic am I? A grown adult unable to accept the truth. I passed a mirror in her hallway and stood momentarily and didnt even recognise myself in the reflection.

I just wanted to let you know, I don’t know if anyone was concerned but for now Im safe. Thank you for your love.